Poem by anonymous
It will only go wrong if it’s going alright
the carpet has been torn out from underneath
how far I’ve fallen
or has it always been this way?
maybe from the beginning I’ve been stumbling
just too lazy to fix the bumps in the carpet
too lazy to smooth out, to recorrect
this dizzy path that spirals out awry
glaring into the horizon
muttering soft little what ifs
I feel a face in my hands, it cries softly, like a child afraid to grow up
why now, why me
how cruel, how honestly will this world repeat
a gentle reminder into the winds that rush by my ears
repeating my thoughts like a soft whisper:
what if I did that instead
stepped back instead of forward
maybe if I had gone the other way
turned my head away, pretended I didn’t see
or maybe I did see and should have accepted it as truth
and tried to move on tried to change
I was a child so I murdered my youth
tore myself apart all ignorant
called myself blind because I didn’t know what it meant to see
I didn’t know, how could I have known
how how how
please tell me
this unfair reality traps me inside
I’m sinking I’m sinking
I don’t see it, I didn’t do it
but it’s in front of me there’s nowhere else to go
no endpoint, no destination
just reality blocking the right way
I have to accept it I have to
the once vibrant sunset is drowned out by rain
all gray and dreary
rain rain go away come again another day
the rain can’t hear me
so it piles up
until it’s far too late to go inside
too late to turn around and go home
too late to change shoes, change clothes, grab an umbrella
too late to regret
there’s a little puddle on the ground
my reflection gazes solemnly back to me
begging me for help
maybe I could have helped if you had just asked a little earlier
there’s nothing I can do now I hate being unable to do anything
so I’ll keep walking, I’ll accept it
all while muttering under my sour breath
into the frigid air, while my legs protest in fatigue
and my teeth chatter, my soaked clothing making me so cold
and my fingers wrinkle all damp
“It shouldn’t have been this way”
The line "I was a child so I murdered my youth" is so good